Name: Suus (or Susy Q)
Age: 33, turning 34 in about a month.
Living situation: I live with my partner A., in a quiet street in a small-ish city in the Netherlands.
Why I speak Dutch and English fluently: I am from the Netherlands, but I lived abroad for a good few years and met A. in Scotland. We speak English in our house. Which is nice for me, but not so much for A., since he's not learning much Dutch this way.
Career: After finishing my Bachelor of Education, I spent two years (in total) teaching Dutch to kids. Besides that, I did a lot of hospitality work. I enjoyed both, but these jobs are actually kind of the worst types of work for an autist. I know that now. But it also means that I'm now on sick pay and not sure 'what to be when I grow up' anymore.
Hobbies: Not sure. There's stuff I do often, like playing (online) games and watching movies, but I am not sure if I can say that they're my hobby. Maybe I don't have hobbies. I'm not sure.
Mental state: I've called in sick (in my teaching job) two years ago with burn-out. This was my third burn-out in 15 years time and I developed severe anxiety. My psych at the time diagnosed it as 'a panic disorder'. Since early 2018 I'm seeing a new psychiatrist and they think my diagnosis should actually be 'ASD'. That would mean that the burn-outs and the anxiety were symptoms, rather than the problems. That's a bit weird for me, still.
Physical state: I have a weird pain limit. I hardly feel pain, which makes it possible to develop illness without noticing. That's a bit weird when it comes to, for example, a rotten tooth. I only notice it after about a week.
Besides that, I feel bothered by stimuli a lot. Not just sounds and light, but also touch is a thing. Especially my skull. It drives me nuts if someone touches it without warning.
Jeez, this is hard. I do not know what to write. Please feel free to ask.
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